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Cricket’s Birth Story

I’ve been putting off writing this for a long time.  It just seems like such a big thing to try to process emotionally and put into words.  But I need to write this down before I start to forget, so here goes.  This is a birth story, y’all.  If you don’t want to hear the nitty-gritty details of how Cricket made her way into the world, then don’t read it.  But if you do read all the way through, you will be rewarded at the end with lots of squishy baby pictures!

My sister-in-law arrived Monday, September 26th.  Before she arrived, I had been so worried about how we would handle things on our own if Cricket decided to come a little early.  With my due date at September 30th, we knew we were cutting it close with her arriving on the 26th, but the Grasshopper was 10 days late.

Still I worried.  I talked to my midwife, Sue, about it.  She gave us a few options, which helped to set my mind at ease.  We could switch from a birth center birth to a homebirth, but because of my husband’s discomfort, that wasn’t a really viable option.  We could bring the Grasshopper with us to the birth center, but I wasn’t very comfortable with that option either.  I worried that with the Grasshopper there, I would want to spend time comforting her instead of focusing on having Cricket.

Eventually, we got a solution figured out.  If Cricket started coming at night, we would take the Grasshopper with us to the birth center.  Her dad would hang out with her until morning, and then her teacher would come pick her up and take her to school (a home daycare) where she would stay until Cricket was born.  If Cricket started coming during the day, we would let her teacher know, and the Grasshopper would spend the evening at school with her teacher’s family.

Thankfully, Cricket decided to stay put until my SIL arrived on the 26th.  I truly think that my body listened to my need to have everything lined up with the Grasshopper’s care, though, because in the wee hours of the morning on the 27th, I woke up with powerful contractions.  I knew this wasn’t a drill.  This wasn’t my body getting ready.  This was it.

I went downstairs and hung out with my SIL for a while.  I sat on the birth ball, hung out, and chatted.  She was jet-lagged so she and I stayed up watching Say Yes to the Dress while things moved along.

At 4:45 AM, I texted our Doula and called Sue to let her know that I thought things were moving.

At some point, I woke up my husband and let him know that this was the real thing.  Can you believe that he thought I was mistaken?  Oh, no.  “Honey, I’ve already called Sue and Jessicka.  This is for real.”  I hung out a while longer, texted our doula and called Sue again, and took a shower.  By that time, it was time to go in to work.

My husband said he wanted to try to work for a few hours in the morning (ha!), but I told him that he needed to drop off the Grasshopper at school and come straight home.  He tried to argue, but believe me when I say that you do not win an argument with a woman in labor!

At 8 AM, as they left, I called Sue and Jessicka again to let them know what was going on.  Sue suggested I hang tight for a bit to see how things progressed.  I told her that when my SIL and my husband got back I needed to come in to the birth center because we would get to a point where I was not going to be willing to go anywhere.

So that was it.  I knew exactly what was going to happen.  Interestingly enough, this was exactly what I had imagined in my hypnobabies birth visualization!  I visualized that my SIL would arrive, I would go into labor the next day while the Grasshopper was at school, and Cricket and I would be back at home in time to welcome her home from school.  So far, things were going just the way I visualized.

It was around the time I made that realization that the contractions started getting a lot more intense.  I couldn’t talk through them.  I started to feel the need to vocalize a little bit by groaning during them.  I started listening to my birthing affirmations hypnobabies track.  (In retrospect, I should have done this right away instead of waiting until later.)

Oh, ha ha to Mr. Grasshopper for trying to tell me this wasn’t really it!

They returned shortly after taking the Grasshopper to school, and I instructed them on putting together our cosleeper (I will describe that in a separate post).  They got the furniture moved and set up, and that was it!

At 9:30 AM, we called Sue and Jessicka, hopped into the car, and headed for the birth center.

Once we got to the birth center and got settled in, it seemed like things had slowed down.  My husband put the Easy First Stage CD in the CD player, but I wasn’t paying much attention.  I sat on the birth ball while Jessicka rubbed my lower back.

At around 10:15, my contractions were still spaced out a bit (6-10 minutes apart), and Sue suggested that my husband and I take a walk around the neighborhood.  Since things had slowed, Jessicka went across the street to check on another mom who was in labor.  I didn’t really want walk, but I went ahead and agreed to.  We walked.  Every few steps, a contraction would hit and I would need to hug my husband and groan a bit.  It was hot.  The sun was bright.  We walked down the sidewalk, across the very small parking lot, and I said, “Forget this.  I want to go back inside!”  So we did.

I was not a happy camper at this point.  I laid down on the bed where things became much more uncomfortable and painful.  Damn if it didn’t hurt!  But it seemed like the contractions were stronger laying down, so I stayed on my side.  Truth be told, I just didn’t want to move.

My contractions were still really far apart, so I sent my husband to Trader Joe’s to get me some snacks.  Davie, one of the other midwives, arrived during this time with a smoothie.  It tasted like hell, but I tried my best to drink it.  If my blood sugar dipped, I might start getting sick again and that was the last thing I wanted.  My SIL hung out with me and held a hot rice sock on my back.

By 10:50, my contractions were every 4-6 minutes apart and really intense.  With every contraction, I would holler down the hall to Sue, and she would come running in to hold my hand.  At the time, it seemed like I was shouting at her in a really demanding way, but later she told me that I just sounded lost like I was calling to her for help.

It was at this point that I started to freak out a little.  I asked Sue to check how dilated I was because I was really losing hope.  She encouraged me to wait just a bit.  At the next contraction, I started cursing and I hollered down the hall, “Where the HELL is Jessicka!”  “I’m here,” she said, “Right here!”  She had just come back.

It was 11:15 by now, and suddenly everyone was back.  My husband was back, Jessicka was back.  Sue, Dawn, and Davie (all 3 midwives were there), and dammit I wanted Sue to check me.  I know I said I didn’t want to be checked, but I wanted to know that something had been happening.  I was pissed, scared, I hurt, and I wanted to know what the deal was.

We waited through another contraction, and then Sue checked me.  I was at 9 cm with a bulging bag of waters and -1 station!  Well, that explained a lot!  I had been in transition!  No wonder I had been feeling so awful!

Hot damn! Davie, fill the tub!  Let’s have us a baby!

The wave of confidence and relief I felt when I heard I was almost completely dilated was incredible.  Suddenly I went from freaking out to ready to get down to business.  Sue was surprised as well.  My contractions were really strong, but they were so widely spaced that she was expecting me to not be nearly where I was.

They got me out of the bed and onto the toilet so I could pee before I got into the tub.  I remember getting up off the bed I told Jessicka, “Okay, I’m going to get up and then I’m going to hit the floor.  I’m not falling down, but a contraction is about to start and I need to be on my hands and knees.”  It helped. I had a few contractions on the toilet, and I did not want to be touched.  Walking from the bathroom to the tub, I went to the floor with each contraction.  But then at 11:30, into the tub I went!

When I finally got into the tub, Dawn put in the Pushing Baby Out Hypnobabies CD.  I wasn’t really ready to push.  The contractions were really painful and I just didn’t feel the urge to push.  The bag of waters was really in the way, and caused quite a bit of discomfort!  Thank goodness for the water though.  It helped immensely.

Sue suggested doing some gentle pushes with the next contraction to see if that would get my water to break.  I tried.  Really, I did.  But it hurt and my heart wasn’t in it.  She checked me again, and I was almost totally dilated except for an anterior lip.  The bag of waters was pushing so hard and was so uncomfortable with every contraction that I asked her to go ahead with the AROM.  A few contractions later, she was ready with the little hook thing, and during my next contraction, she broke my water.  This was 11:56 AM.

Now I was ready to get down to business!  At 12:05, my body started pushing and I started pushing, too.  Sue and Dawn really let me do my own thing.  They didn’t try to direct my pushing or my breathing and they allowed me to trust my body to do what it needed to do.

And now I really started vocalizing.  I was actually not aware that I could make sounds like that!  I think I sounded like a cow!  I grunted and groaned and growled.  In retrospect, I feel a little embarrassed about it, but nature really did take over, and I was just along for the ride.  I really think that the Hypnobabies practice was helping me to allow my body to do what I needed to do.

I pushed for a few minutes, but I was kind of on my back.  I remember at one point reaching down and feeling her head.  I felt a ridge and was really worried that the cord was getting pinched.  Sue checked between contractions and reassured me that the ridge I felt were the plates in Cricket’s skull compressing as she moved through my pelvis.  Our bodies were both doing exactly what they were supposed to do.

I was having trouble pushing.  I was sitting up, but I had slid down a little so I was reclined a bit, and that made things more difficult.  Sue tried to get me to curl around Cricket more to help push, but I had a hard time doing that.  I just kept sliding down in the tub, and my motivation to move was nonexistent.  If there were a next time, I would tell Sue to zap me in the butt with a cattle prod.  I think it would’ve been easier if I would’ve been in a different position.

I think at some point I yelled at Dawn (or Davie?) to shut off the CD.  The noise was bugging me and I wasn’t paying attention anyway.

Around the time that Cricket started to crown (or maybe before?) Sue reached down to see if some perineal massage would help give some comfort, and she had only barely touched me when I screamed at her, “DON’T TOUCH ME!”  Which in retrospect is kind of funny since I had written into my birth plan that I definitely wanted her to do that.  It’s amazing how your body tells you what you do and do not need.  I could feel myself tearing a bit, and when she laid hands on me (gently I might add!), it just intensified the feeling.

Again, I surprised myself by how I was able to vocalize.  I was able to tell my birth attendants what I needed without feeling too shy to do so, and I was able to allow my body to make the noises it needed to help push Cricket out.  A few times I felt myself panicking and the pitch of my sounds would rise up into a higher register.  Each time that happened, it seemed like Sue or Dawn would get my attention very gently by laying a hand on my shoulder and quietly saying my name.  And I would bring my voice down into the low, belly sounds.  Keeping my voice low and deep helped me to feel more in control and helped keep the pressure low in my belly to help me push.  I think the Hypnobabies class really helped me to feel comfortable using my voice during Cricket’s birth.

Cricket crowned pretty quickly, but she didn’t come out all in one push.  Her head stuck out under the water, and Sue said, “You need to get up out of the water now.”  Something about the way she said it motivated me, and my husband and Jessica helped me to stand up.  I think Sue was expecting me to get all the way out of the tub, but as soon as I stood up, I had another contraction, and… BLOOOP!  OUT SHE CAME!

(For those keeping track, the time was 12:24 PM)

Sue made it around in time to catch her, and half a heartbeat later, Sue was passing her between my legs for me to hold.  At first I felt really confused and I didn’t want to take her.  I couldn’t really figure out what had happened, but I reached down and grabbed her because Sue was telling me to. As soon as she was in my arms and I felt her weight the confusion lifted, and I realized who she was and what we had just done.

And we sat down for a good snuggle in the tub.  It was the most amazing feeling.  It told my husband later that it was about a hundred times harder than running a marathon.  It was like I had walked through fire and come out a new person.  It was amazing.

 

Bless her, little Cricket was such a little cuddle bug!  I just held her and cuddled her and a few minutes later I nursed her and I cuddled her some more.  It was awesome.  She was so warm and soft and covered in vernix (sorry about your shirt Sue!).  She was so alert, too!  She just looked around quietly taking everything in.

 

Sue, Dawn and Jessicka were making bets on how big she was.  To me, she just looked like a squishy newborn, but apparently she looked pretty big.  Sue bet that she was 10 lbs 11 oz and Dawn bet that she was 10 lbs 6 oz.

We waited quite a while in the tub.  In my birth preferences, I wanted to wait for the cord to stop pulsing before we cut it, and it pulsed for a long time!  It was a big, strong placenta!  Finally, at 1:04 PM, it stopped pulsing.  We clamped the cord and my SIL cut it.  Her papa was too squicked out to do that and I was high up in Happy Babyland.  So she got the honors.

When my body started pushing the placenta out (1:15), I remember groaning and saying, “Why?  Why won’t it just leave me alone?”  But we got that done, too.  Apparently it was a huge placenta, and I got a nifty placenta anatomy lesson from Dawn a little later, which was very cool.

Sue and Dawn gave me plenty of time to relax and snuggle with Cricket.  When they did the newborn exam and weighed Cricket, it turned out that no one had been right about her weight.  She was 11 lbs!  Eleven.  She was huge!  She was the 3rd largest baby Sue and Dawn had ever delivered and the biggest Jessicka had ever assisted with!

I had to get some stitches. I was pushing like the blue blazes, and she was 11 lbs after all.  But Sue got it done quickly.  By 4 PM that same day, we were home and settled in.

A few days after she was born, my husband said, “Are you ever going to stop bragging about how big she is?”  Nope!  I had an 11 lb baby without meds!  I feel like superwoman!  Sometimes I wonder if I’m still riding high on the hormones from Cricket’s birth!  No, by now it’s just the oxytocin from nursing that keeps me feeling so good!

It was an incredible experience.  9 hours of labor start to finish. 20 minutes of pushing.  One enormous and beautiful child.  Who could ask for more?  My husband was awesome.  My midwives were unbelievable. Jessicka was incredible.  I think I had the best birth team on the planet!

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15 thoughts on “Cricket’s Birth Story

  1. Your birth team sounds incredible. I am SO glad you got to have the delivery that you wanted. So much love to your family! Thank you for posting this, it was worth the wait!

    So I’m reading kind of mixed reactions to the hypnobabies CDs in this post. I know that a big hope was the thinking about the process without negative words like “pain,” but it sounds like that didn’t exactly translate during labor and delivery, yeah? But at the same time you visualized the birth process almost to a T and you give some credit to hypnobabies for that. Would you say they were still beneficial, and with your experience, what recommendations would you make to someone considering them?

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    1. You know, Megan, I started writing a whole response about how I thought the Hypnobabies techniques affected this birth. But it was turning into a really long write-up, and I think it might deserve it’s own post. The short answer is this: It’s complicated. But thanks for asking this question. I will do my best to answer it fully.

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  2. Congratulations!!! She is an adorable little one, and you look absolutely magnificent! I am so thrilled to hear her birth story and know that you both are well and had a good experience. Isn’t it funny how one’s body dictates what one needs – even when it goes against the birth plan? The same things happened with me. Again, congrats!!!! 🙂

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      1. Diana! Congratulations! I tried to post a comment, but I couldn’t! Grrr. Blogger hates me. Come to WordPress! The grass is greener here! Love to you and your family. You are an amazing lady.

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      2. Thanks so much, Molly! It’s amazing that our little babes are here in person now!! (And you see how horrible I’ve become at giving timely responses to messages – ack!) 🙂

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  3. What a beautiful story. Thank you for sharing it.
    I remember being on all fours with my first birth and making some sort of whale call and It was like watching it from above, I was thinking I didn’t know I could make such strange primal sounds-lol- what I must have looked like, I don’t even want to know 🙂

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